Slumped...Let me tell you what happened

Before we even get started, I know I was supposed to post last Saturday. Believe me when I say I thought about it the whole week and then somehow, it ain't happen. Are we surprised?

If you read my Q1 wrap up from a couple of weeks ago, you will know that March was not too good to me when it comes to reading (which I take personal offense to because that's my birthday month). I was in the slump of all slumps. I started 3 different books and when I tell you they each got tossed into my DNF pile. It's not even that I disliked the books. I was just not feeling reading, and that broke me.

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It took me a little while to figure out what even happened because I started the year off strong and then after February, I fell all the way off. Well, I finally pinpointed what happened. I intend to write a full post on the book that sent me on this spiral and how it did so, but just know that Our Vicious Oaths by N.E. Davenport ruined me for everything else for a while.

IYKYK 😉

Anyway, I have a whole entire post to talk about that book and what it did to me so I won't get into specifics here.

This slump, though, pained me to no end because I wanted to read so badly, but every time I tried, it just wasn't working out for me. I'd be into a story, until I wasn't. My mind would wander to the last book I finished and I'd feel an emptiness like I lost something (technically I did. Come back next week for the details lol).

So, I did what any reading girly would do when nothing is working really; I went on a hold spree on Libby.

All throughout March, I was putting a bunch of books on hold and the waits were egregious. Like, why are there 100+ people waiting for the same book?! There I was though, scrolling, clicking, giggling, and kicking my feet with glee all through March and most of April. All these possible wonderful books for me to read eventually. Reader's paradise. What could go wrong?

Well, it's now May. Somehow and someway, all those books I put on hold are now available. My inbox is exploding with all the wonderful options past me was happily adding to my hold list without thinking of the logistics. And you know, I've come to learn that past me is my biggest hater because baby what are you doing?!

Now, I'm over here stressed. Not because I have nothing to read, but because I have too much to read, and I want to read it all! I'm currently reading 3 books at once, and I'm racing against the clock because these days are passing on by. I know I can extend my loans, but so many of my other holds are now available AND there's still more becoming available soon.

I know what you may be thinking: girl, that is not a problem. And to that I say, who asked you?! I truly feel like I'm in a predicament because it's like a domino effect. The books become available and I borrow the book because apparently, I have no self-control or self-respect. Past me is consistently playing in my face. Besides, I don't want to lose my place in line because I did not consider how long reading all these books would take me (all you read-a-book-a-day people, don't even start; I'm not one of you).

So, that's how my reading slump turned into a reading surplus. Am I going to survive this? I guess we'll all find out in the coming weeks.